The Panera

You have seen a deck of cards before, havenโ€™t you? Kings and Queens, ones and twos, yet they all play significant roles in the game. Iโ€™m not here for the Kings and Queens no. Iโ€™m here for the ones and twos. So if youโ€™re a King or a Queen, this isnโ€™t the free blog for…

Imagine Demons.

I was on crack. Not bouijie WallStreet cocaine. Hard Detroit crack. The kind you know is killing you quickly but you really can't help yourself. Like you're falling in the shower and you're trying to grip the water and pull yourself up. At a certain point, self help is foolishness. You gotta ask yourself, "what…

Beautiful Suffering II

โ€œFor I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.โ€Romansโ€ฌ โ€ญ8:18โ€ฌ โ€ญ I used to despise this verse. I mean, suffer why? For what? How is the suffering necessary for my glorification? We've asked the questions, now let's answer them.…

Beautiful Suffering

There's beauty in pain. From masochistic tendencies, to sadism to childbirth, even in education, there's a sweetness that lingers when the pain goes away. Metal heads and gym rats preach no pain no gain. But what's the point to pain if there's no gain? I yawned a little and bit the inside of my cheek…

The Church Corrupts.

Holding my phone in solitude after a very powerful service, I'm feeling one thing. Love. Not some fuzzy feeling in my stomach for one physically attractive male, a mental peace, sense of belonging. The church is an asylum, not a Pharisee retreat center. Our churches are full of self righteous people who'd kick you down…

Emotional make up.

Before I talk about depression or the addiction that shackled me in the past years, let me explain the gag I wore. Make up is dirt. But what about emotional make up? If you met me especially in Uni you'd know me to be someone who didn't care much about life and had almost no…

Shit to Shine?

I found love,finally. In a place I never thought I would. In a place I had only known pain and judgment. In the one place I didn't belong. I have found a family. A peace like never before. A resting place. And I can't wait to tell you about it. Before I say anything, I…

Mon Cher Sucre Pere

Love,money,sex and morals. These seem to be the three pillars people stand on in their decisions pertaining to relationships and the opposite sex. It's often said that people know what they want with you within five minutes of meeting you. Obviously not long term. But the bottom line is, a smash or pass decision only…

365 days,

What makes me me? One swoop of your eyes over me and I'm just an averagely tall girl, slightly overweight and with an extremely bloated midsection. But that's who I am, who are you? Who do you know yourself to be? Sometimes we create images of how we want to look in other people's eyes.…

Complains of a submissive.

(Based on Sophie Morgan's Diary Of a Submissive. Contents of this post are entirely fictional.) If you know me personally, you'd have been surprised I did eight posts without talking about sex. Well, today's your lucky day. The first thing to say is I'm not a pervert. No more than everyone else. And my definition…

Bliss?

Hope is what drives us when life is hard. Faith is what keeps us hoping in the first place. We often seem to forget to savor the moments in life forgetting that life, life isn't forever. Existence maybe, but life as we know know it, the earth, has an expiry date. And us, humans, are…